After my long-ass day of work and school, I’m finally snuggled up in bed about to get in some self-care.
It will consist of: reading for fun (the leather daddy and the femme, oh so good!), probably jerking off, and then sleep before 11:30.
Ready, set, go.
I’m worried I might be susceptible to getting sick all of a sudden. I haven’t been sleeping as much/well as I should, I’ve had a busy couple of weeks with wrapping up school and various events going on, and I work at an elementary school where everyone seems sick all of the time. Not to mention that the kiddo that I primarily work with seemed really under the weather today and will most likely be at school tomorrow even if she is really sick. So today I got pho in an attempt to ward off any impending illness. I’ve been drinking lots of water. I also took some jade defense tincture and am going to bed within the hour to get a solid night’s sleep. I am one day away from spring break.
i will not get sick.
i will not get sick.
i will not get sick.
Another jam-packed weekend.
Saturday I worked for this amazing youth arts camp at a weekend intensive they were having in Portland. I have spent my last two summers working at this camp as a youth advocate, but Saturday was the first time I got to present a lesson as an artist. It was a truly amazing opportunity and it was so great to see the youth get engaged in fiber arts. I’m super bummed I won’t be there again this summer, but grad school is my main priority right now. I do get to head to camp at the end of April for another intensive, so at least there’s that.
Self-care was a bit low on the list on Saturday as I was so busy all day and also just exhausted from the festivities of the night before. But I did manage a nap post teaching and some general relaxation time. And I made it to bed early, which is pretty awesome on the weekend.
Sunday was about wrapping up the last of my homework for the term. I drank delicious tea and got so much work done with friends at the tea house. I finished my big final project and feel so amazing about wrapping up my first term of grad school. Then I took one of my besties to get birthday pedicures! My feet needed that. Then we picked up another bff and went out for wings and ice cream. Kind of the perfect way to wrap up the weekend. And I was in bed by 10:30, with all of my homework done, ready to face my last long Monday of this quarter (although next term’s Mondays are going to be even more intense, yikes!). Can’t beat that.
Today self-care looked like leaving work early due to a major cramp onslaught, crawling into bed, and sleeping it off for a couple of hours.
And then planning a cute secret birthday party with a dear friend. And having some heart time together. So good. I love my friends. I love what they bring into my life. I love how we celebrate one another and hold space for each other. It is so important to me. And I know I wouldn’t be in such a good place right now if I didn’t have them by my side, in my corner, holding my hand, and us holding each other up.
Power through the Monday.
How I took care of myself on this long ass day:
- took my meds
- drank a lot of coffee
- drank a lot of water
- read for fun
- went to bed well before midnight
self-care goal: get good sleep.
In bed before 10.
I am exhausted. I’m surprised I’m even still awake to make this post. Mondays are shaping up to be so intense. I feel like Mondays are hard enough for me as it is, just by being the beginning of the week, but now I have school on top of it. And I love school, but by 7pm I’m pretty done, and there’s still another hour of lecture to go at that point. Oy.
So today’s self-care and body love means going to bed before 10:30. Getting some serious sleep. I need it.
And I’m still on a roll with fatshion february. My fatographer was out this evening, so I had to take the picture myself, but I think I did ok.
Today, self-care looks like calling a best friend instead of spiraling out of control in my own head. And letting myself cry for a minute.
And going to bed early (for me anyway). Mondays are my hardest days with work and school and I was up entirely too late last night. I will not be doing that again. Oy.
self-care goal: quiet the noise in your head
self-care goal: get good sleep
So, I’m a little late with this post as I actually held myself to my goal from Monday and went to bed before 11. Barely, but I did it. Tonight I’m going to try for before 10:45. Baby steps.
Before sleep last night, I spent a few minutes spiraling in my journal. See, I sometimes get to ruminating, running the same things over and over in my head, and then I can’t turn it off enough to go to sleep. And when I finally do get to sleep, the same things will pop up in my dreams. Or I’ll have really restless sleep. I’ve been really good lately about working through this stuff (movement is a huge help), but yesterday it crept in anyway. I do this exercise I read about in Picture This by Lynda Barry, where you draw spirals to help you work through something. Spirals in and spirals out. It’s one of my favorite quick techniques for processing through something.
So, last night before bed I filled a page of my journal with spirals. I used a fine point marker and it made really satisfying lines:
After spiraling, I read a few poems from The Collected Poems of Audre Lorde because I wasn’t quite ready for bed. With school starting, I don’t have the time I’d like any more for leisure reading, but I’m trying to start a new ritual of reading a poem or two at night so that I still get to do some reading for pleasure. Then it was lights out at 10:53 and a solid night’s sleep.
What do you do to clear your head?
What are your bedtime rituals?