day 50.

Today I bought myself a really amazing pair of boots. I have been dreaming about these boots for years. Unfortunately, I don’t have them yet, but they should be in my hands and on my feet in a few days. I don’t want to think about what they cost, but I already know they are worth every penny.

I also went to a super tender and amazing show. I saw Timmy Straw and Rae Spoon, and I closed my eyes and danced and felt so lucky to be where I am. Fatshion february post here.

And then I did some really important heart work and stayed up so so late. But it was necessary and cathartic and vulnerable and needed. I feel lighter than I have in a long time and I finally feel ready to move forward. Thank you.

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day 45.

valentine’s day. treated myself to deliciousness.

went on a cute romantic friend date with two of my favorite loves.

vermicelli bowl. so damn good.

avocado shake. even better.

Wyatt being cute and me eating a salad roll that’s falling apart.

Jessika pouring tea.

caught Wyatt mid-bite.

and for dessert: macarons from pix!

 

this morning before work I drove by to see the big valentine installed at planned parenthood, and I’m glad I did because apparently by 10:30am it was gone! I just hope some folks that work there got a chance to see it. It felt so good to make.

Also, a valentine’s fatshion february post!

day 39.

A day full of self-care and serious body love.

The highlights:

• A new bustier for a party I’m going to this weekend. It is really hot and made me feel so good about my curves. Plus it was on sale for $10, can’t beat that.
• Counseling. Not as intense as last time (thank god), but still really good and productive. I feel like I’m getting somewhere, at least.
• Acupuncture. I went to that space that I only get to when I’m on the table. I really like that space.
• Unexpected and delicious dinner times with a bestie. I ate some of the most amazing pickled things I’ve ever had. And I feel pretty strongly about pickles.
• More late night art making. Really lifting my spirits right now.
• Fatshion February day 8.

day 38.

The full moon is in Leo tonight. I made it a point to do something creative and try to channel some of that moon energy intentionally into my life.

With homework, school, work, etc. I haven’t had nearly enough time for art. Part of self-love is about honoring my creativity. My near constant desire to be making something with my hands. Today, I made room.

 

because I sometimes forget.

 

I also had an impromptu dance session with my housemate, ate a super delicious dinner with him at a Lebanese restaurant, and twirled under the moon for a minute. Yeah, I twirled. Oh, and posted my dinner outfit on tumblr for Fatshion February!

day 37.

I am exhausted. I’m surprised I’m even still awake to make this post. Mondays are shaping up to be so intense. I feel like Mondays are hard enough for me as it is, just by being the beginning of the week, but now I have school on top of it. And I love school, but by 7pm I’m pretty done, and there’s still another hour of lecture to go at that  point. Oy.

So today’s self-care and body love means going to bed before 10:30. Getting some serious sleep. I need it.

And I’m still on a roll with fatshion february. My fatographer was out this evening, so I had to take the picture myself, but I think I did ok.

day 35 & day 36.

self-care goal: move your body

This weekend, I really tried to focus in on moving my body in intentional and motivating ways. Movement is one of the ways I work through things, and coming off a very emotional week where I was processing a lot, I needed to dedicate some time to getting into my body and out of my head.

Saturday I went to derby class again. It was even better this time. I know I said this last week, but going again was such a good reminder to me for how present and in my body I am when I’m skating. I’m pretty sure my friend and I are going to join the Wreckers, the Rose City Rollers recreational league. I’m fairly confident that I do not want to be a full-on bouting rollergirl again, but I do really miss the sport. I think the rec league sounds really fun and would be a good challenge for me. It would also have me skating regularly, which I’ve clearly discovered is something I want to be doing. Anyway, orientation is next week, so I’ll know more then. It’s also super fun and motivating to have a friend to do this with.

Also, my thighs are so sore today in that really delicious way that I just love. More of that, please.

Today was so unbelievably sunny and dare I say it, warm out. I was swamped with homework but I did manage to take a break and enjoy the weather. I took the teeny tiny out for a walk to enjoy the sunshine. It was short, but being out in the fresh air was energizing. It definitely helped me clear my head and it was good to stretch my legs after skating.

My housemate and I also made delicious treats to take to a super bowl party. We made jalapeno poppers with bacon and those amazing rice crispy treats again. Then we spent the afternoon watching football and Madonna at halftime with a roomful of sweet folks and amazing food. My friend cooked ribs and chicken that were out of control good. Yum!

Now we have chile verde on the stove making the house smell amazing. Can’t wait to have it for lunch tomorrow!

Also, two fatshion february posts! Saturday and Sunday.

 

day 34.

Today body love looked like fucking up some chicken wings with my fat femme sister. And listening to each other share the hard stuff.

Also, day 3 of fatshion february! i’m really loving searching the tags on tumblr for this!

day 33.

self-care goal: move your body

Today I loved my body by getting out of bed, putting on a hot outfit, and going dancing. Moving my body, getting hot and sweaty, and singing along to the music put me in such a good mood. I’ve been having a rough week emotionally, but today I’m thinking it may have finally shifted.

And while I have to be up for work in about six hours, and I put off my homework for another night, I don’t regret it one bit.

I also documented what I was wearing for fatshion february here.

day 32.

I had every intention of making a post full of all of the things I plan to do this month to love my body, but I had a pretty emotional day and I waited too long to have dinner and now all I want to do is snuggle with my little dog and watch something funny before bed. so I’m going to do just that.

The list will have to wait til tomorrow.

But one thing I’m working on in the vein of loving my body every day is participating in fatshion february.  I think it will be a great project for me. It will get me more used to photographing myself, it will encourage me to wear some really amazing outfits in the middle of winter, and it will help me celebrate my body to the fullest. I’m not sure if I’ll get to it everyday, but it is definitely a goal of mine.

Here‘s my post from today.