The last day of 2012.
I spent the last few hours of the year playing games and eating good food with friends at a small gathering. At 11 I headed home to wrap up the year alone, reflecting on all that I have accomplished and all that I am looking forward to in the year to come. I wrote intentions, consulted the cards, ate a satsuma and some good chocolate, and cuddle with my dog. It felt like the perfect way to end my year of self-care. With love and joy and intention.
I started 2013 by taking a bubble bath and reading by candlelit. Starting another year of self-care off right.
Now that the year is complete, I won’t be writing here anymore. I will be tracking my self-care in other, less public ways and dreaming up more projects for the years to come, and plan to look back on this blog as a tool and a reminder.
I am proud of myself for completing this project; for making self-care an integral part of my year and life. I have learned so much about myself, my community, and the way I want to go through my days. For me, self-care is vital.
I am looking forward to what the future holds, for all of us.
Be good to yourself. xo.
intentions for 2013.
I haven’t written here in over a month. I’ve been trucking on with this project and honoring my original intentions, but I haven’t been up for writing about it or documenting it. Which in some ways feels like a bummer, but in other ways feels okay. I think something I have learned from this near year (can you believe it?) project is to just be gentle with myself. Which sometimes means that I don’t write here for a month or more. I have intentions of getting back on track and writing more for the next 55 days, but if I don’t do it, it won’t be the end of the world either.
I’ve been thinking a lot about self-care and what it means for me now that I’m nearing the end of this project. I’m still figuring it all out, and while this project is intensely personal, it has also been about my community and how we take care of each other. My most memorable, heart-filling self-care has actually been more about intentional time with friends and supporting one another (and there is often food involved) so that we can get through the next day, week, month just a little bit easier. And I think ultimately that is what I will take away from this year: self-care for me is community care.
Here is a much more eloquent article on a similar topic by the brilliant Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha. As a chronically ill, working class femme myself, these words truly resonated. Please check it out and support her if you’re able.
Act of self-love: home is where the heart is
Today Wyatt and I made our intentions to start a home together known. We gave our notice to our other housemates, which was a bit nerve-wracking but also so necessary. I’m so excited to start an intentional space with just the two of us. Wyatt and I live really well together, and I’m just at the point in my life where I need to live with less people, and live in a house that really feels like a home. I’ve loved living at my house for the past 2+ years, but it is definitely time for a change. I’m not super looking forward to the prospect of packing and moving, but overall I’m super excited. And I’m confident that we will manifest our dream home together. Here’s to a new adventure of living in Portland and to making decisions that ultimately make me happier.
Later in the day, I put my hands in the dirt. Planted some squash plants, and admired the garden at my friends’ house. I feel so fortunate to get the chance to garden again with folks who are super dedicated and sweet.
self-care: back to basics edition
Today I just focused on getting through. I’m on the edge of burn out (and sickness) and I’m trying to combat it the best I can. Really, I just need to get to the weekend.
Today was: nap after work, drinking lots of water, taking my meds, finishing a school assignment early, some hand sewing for repetitive motion and mind clearing, sending an exciting email that could bring some fun new possibilities into my life, and burning some palo santo before bed.
My intentions for the next few days: prioritizing the important stuff, making time to relax and enjoy the moment, and getting shit done. Make it happen.